Voices

There's a voice ringing in my ears, and though I listen, I don't know whether to follow.

There's a voice in my brain. I don't know whether to obey, and it's driving me insane.

And there's a voice in my heart. Though I feel it, I don't know whether it's wrong or right.

But there's a voice in my soul. I vow to follow Christ wherever he wants me to go.

Glance at me and smile when I catch you looking. Quote lines from my favorite movies or books. Sing randomly in my ear no matter how you sound. Play with my hair. Tickle me. Poke me. Don't stop if I'm laughing when I tell you to cut it out. Keep your hand on mine a moment too long. Put your arm around me. Make me laugh. Listen when I speak. Make me feel loved.

Summer <3

summer, summer, summer.
freedom, relaxation, fun.
friends, family, love.
reading, sports, conversation.
lemonade, cookouts, salads.
parties, events, reunions.
adventure, bonding, experiences.
summer, summer, summer.

The Reason

What good is screaming, when no one's gonna hear?
And what good is punching, scince no one's gonna feel?
What good is crying, if no one dries my tears?
What good is talkin? No one's gonna care.

Why write a letter that no one's gonna read?
Why fix a ruined painting that no one's gonna see?
Why run a race that I know I'm gonna fail?
What good is telling a story, if no one want to hear my tale?

Why am I waiting? Nothing's gonna happen.
Why get up? I'll just fall again.
What good is acting if there's no audience?
Why try to look my best, since I don't get a second glance?

Because he hears my anger, and he helps to soothe my mind.
He takes all my frustration and gives me peace inside.
He holds me in his arms until he sees me smile.
His ears are always open if I want to talk a while.

He reads my every word and helps me to understand
He sees the inner beauty and steadies my shaky hand.
Last place, to him, is just proof that I completed my task
When I put down my pen, in my hand he puts it back.

Someday my prince will come, but even now HE's standing here.
Because he's here to hold me and keep me from all my fears.
Because his cheers are louder than a theater huge and full.
'Cause I know that all that matters is he made me beautiful.

Because I have a Savior who will love me till the end.
He's here through trials and heartache. He is my BEST FRIEND.

inspiration

OK, so I just spent an hour walking around the park and listening to my ipod. Nature and music, two of my favorite things, grouped together. As I walked along, I thought about where I chose to walk. Most ppl would suspect that I'm a trail kind of girl (actually, most ppl probably think that I'm a stay indoors kind of girl), but I tended to stay off the concrete paths today. I walked in the muddy grass, among the trees and trampling over the fallen leaves. (I wish there had been snow.) It reminded me of the story in the bible about taking the road less traveled. It's blessed me so far. I know that I made the right decision. Besides, the nature and fun is more likely to be found on the road less traveled. OK, profound moment over. I'm gonna go work on my book, or read one...

falalalaloser

I absolutely love christmas!!! but right now, my brain is a little preoccupahdoe. See, my friend from school is supposed to be asking this guy I like whether or not the feeling is the same for him. She hasn't talked to him yet, and I'm getting impatient. I know it's sorta juvenile to have a friend ask instead of doing it myself, but I've been hurt before, and I'd like to stay away from that possibility. I feel like a kindergartener, but I don't want to be embarrased. I feel like if I keep asking her about it, I'll annoy her, and I don't want to do that, but I really want to know how he feels. High School drama... ugghhh.

On a lighter note, I'm writing a book. The title is two for one, and it will be a young adult novel. I'm only on chapter 3, but the goal is to be done before I turn 16. When I am finished, I plan to send it to a publisher. How amazing would it be to be a published author by the time I turn 17?! Anyway, Merry Christmas. I'm wishing for a christmas miracle...

urgggg.

I always thought that I wasn't pretty enough to have to deal w/ this stuff. There are rumors at school that 4 guys like me. I don't easily believe these things, but everyone is talking about it. Should I believe it, or are they just trying to see if I'll actually believe it and then laugh in my face? I know that one of them is true because he told me, but the other 3? I don't know, I guess I just have a hard time believing that guys actually like me. It's not that I think I'm ugly or a horrible person, but I have a history of trusting what people say too easily.